cookies n' cream

what will I do, i Cant sleep…..im afraid things if things will not be the same…im paranoid…what if he’s inlove with someone else? I havent told my feelings yet kc i have to keep my words..sabi ko dati after graduation..ayoko pa san madevelop feelings ko kia lang love is very inevitable..u cant really manipulate it..kahit anu pang gawin kong panloloko sa sarili ko ..ako lang nsasakatan…ang hirap nmn totally mag show ng feelings though sometimes im sweet to him iba pa rin kung bf ko nasya…ibang care and love and attention un…that is a level up..but I CANT! why oh why! indi ako magugulat kung one day umalis sya…sana lng mas maaga pa..para kaya ko kc pag naiisip ko parang sa ngayong nahihirapan na ko..ayokong umalis sya! Ayoko ng feelings ko! sya n lng lagi ko naiisip! What is this! am i jealous? should i be?….cant sleep. Honest to goodness I hope he gets what he deserve. He’s a super nice guy and im sure every girl would love him if they only know kung gano sya kasincere sa isang babae. and i know im lucky to have him around. I pray na sana hindi ko sya ma take for granted and ma alagaan  nmin ang friendship na meron kami. sana di na k maging moody sa knya. sana lagi lng lme msaya. sana mapakita at maparamdam ko sa knia ang totoo kong feelings, something pure,kind and something that will never come to an end.WHatever happens! good night.